in need to rant, bitch, vent .. so on ..

i feel like my faults are always overlooked that even when i’m trying to impress you it doesn’t work. i’ve worked my ass off this past year with one of my strongest motivations was to make you proud. and honestly i don’t know, i feel like if i’m not doing enough to impress you then i’m not doing enough to impress him either. he was just as difficult to please as you are. i put my academics first, regardless of my social life & even my overall health. is it because i’m not pursuing a major/career that is stable enough? not enough pay? i don’t care and i thought of my options. i love psychology and eventually, the military will be in my future either during or after school. i don’t want to do things for the purpose of stability, but to simply serve a purpose and impact lives. that is what i’m passionate about.

so yet it seems like regardless of what i try to do to earn your trust, you always seem to lecture me again like a little naive delinquent. i do love you & i’m sorry for everything i’ve done in the past but i’ve been trying so hard to show you what i could at least accomplish and you seem like you can’t acknowledge that especially when you compare me to others. 

Anonymous said:  Your pretty lets date?

no thanks, i got a boyfriend :)

Anonymous said:  Are you going to "The Beatles: The Lost Concert" movie premier in a few weeks?

hmmm i don’t know, maybe.